Wandering Mind

Whether I am at work, in bed, or trying to decide on something my wanders on to the most asinine things or the most self destructive. Usually it's asinine like how horrible would parents have to be if their last name was Lee and they gave their child the first name of Broc and some middle name that started with an O. When it's self destructive it's usually at night like working late or in bed, I berate myself for not doing better in school, not being charming enough, praying when I go to my car some idiot customer which drives like a maniac will hit me, whatever. But the most self destructive thoughts only occur when someone I knew from college sees me, I don't know why these are the ones who snubbed me or the annoyingly friendly colleagues who knew my mother who worked where I went to college. The students who I know that come in all got to tell me how great their life job in whatever field they studied is then ask me about me, duh I work at gorram grocery store just to pay rent to my parents, where the only thing I seem to be good at is everything I hate the most, such as making/reworking fruit baskets (I am the frelling fruit basket guru for godsakes there), talking to customers, etc.